I must say, I'm a bit down tonight.  Had a good slow day.  Worked on my impossible talk, played with the kids. Washed my jeep and made it service appropriate.  Than after the kids bath, while I was getting them ready for meeting.  I was informed by my daughter, that she is tired of me being "bad"  and that she wants to go be with daddy because she loves him and he is nice to her.  I asked her how daddy was nice to her and she said, he lets me do what I want, you dont. Your mean and make me go to bed at night.   And the way she said it was like she was so miserable with me, her hunch of a mommy.  
I know she is a child.  And I know having structure and rules or being "mean" is really the best thing for her and is what will make her feel happy and safe in the long run..... but when your child says something like that to you your heart cracks in just about every corner it has.  Theres so much I cant tell Purdee, so much I doubt I ever will.  Even though I know deep down I'm protecting her.....to think in any way that she is unhappy makes me shrivel into a pile.  To have someone who you think is your world tell you they dont love you hurts...... Its one thing when it comes from an angry man, completely another when its your child.....whether they mean it or not.