This is such a perfect evening.  We made home made pizzas. Than watched The Outdoors with Dan Akroid.(im pretty sure thats spelled wrong)  LOL its old but I love it!  Now I sit here in my room. I was studying while my kids played.  But I kept having to stop because Purdees imagination is fabulous!! I keep thinking I didn't hear her correctly.  But when I ask what she is playing, she looks at me like Im crazy and goes about her business.  Obviously she is doing whatever it is she is doing.  My horning in isnt helping matters any.  But on a nice note she did bring me "food",  plastic corn and a pile of pickles.  mmmm.  Than she brought me imaginary coffee, which I must say is the best coffee I have ever had.  I just may ask for a second cup! Linkon is putzing around the room with his tow truck.  There is nothing in the world that beats this toy people....its doors open and shut.  He spends hours everyday opening them and putting something inside the cab.  Than he drives it around.  Only to re-open both doors and find something else to put in the cab.  Its the best game ever.  And he does it with this look of severe determination.  
Leave it to kids to bring you back down to earth.  What goes on inside their little brains?..... The innocence they bring to life.  Everything you think is so importent and stressful....simply isnt when your with them. Today we played.  I pretended I was five again and Purdee and I made puppets, than read a bazillion stories.  I get all into doing the different accents and getting into character.  Only to have her say "mom could you be normal?"  :-( 
Purdee loves spider man.  LOVES!  And pretty much anything thats not girly.  She reminds me of myself as a little girl.  She will be sitting outside in a mud puddle with rubber boots, holding a worm. While yelling at something next to her. hehehe.  I definitely dont need to worry about her having a strong personality.   Where as linkon is soft and sweet and happy.  and HUGE!  He is now the new "bomber". When i was little that was my nick name because I never went around anything. I went through it.  Linkon has earned the nickname......  As he now stands next to me dancing and looking down at his moving limbs like .... "whats happening to me?"  LOL I love kids.  All that matters in my life is right here in this room and getting them into the new world so they can have a life so deserving of their little imaginations.  
And even though I'm alone in getting them there.  Im not scared.  Is that odd?  I have Jehovah, I have my family.  What more do I need?  Sure... another person in this room right now would definitely add to the laughter in life.  But I've accepted that probably wont happen.  Im a package deal.  Thats not what people want.  Nor would I want to weigh any one else's life down.  Except if they new how rewarding it is to have kids....I know they would love mine as much as I do. 
I gonna stop rambling and go play with my kids...besides my "coffee" is running low.  Happy Me.