I am so madly in love with the field ministry.  Went out after meeting today with such a lovely group, Two of whom I'd never worked with before.  Linda, another one of the regular pioneers for our hall came in our group to.  I love her so much.  What a humble, soft spoken woman.  And the way she talks at the door.... no wonder people respond to her. I found myself wanting to hoard her as she went to her calls.  I wanted to hear everything she had to say.  Like a sponge on a wet floor.  I can see I'm going to learn a lot from her.  
We were talking about how it can be nerve racking to be out in service when you haven't been so regular.  I love service and if I miss a few days, my first day back out I still get butterflies.  Well.....I always get butterflies.  In moving here to Solon and being able to get out in service so much more....I was so scared at first.  But the more you go out, the more Jehovah blesses you will HELP.  The more confidence I've gotten going to the doors.  You learn to trust so much more in Jehovah and the fear begins to go away. Never completely for me, but it does. I've never been afraid of the house holder.  I've always been nervous of the person I'm with.  What if I say something that makes no sense?  Or if I apply a scripture wrong?  But what I have learned- is that everyone gets a little flustered.  And if I get flustered at the door its ok.  Lots of the time it makes the house holder more comfortable with you.  Gives you something to laugh about it.  Break the ice.   I'm not perfect, especially out in service, I'm sure I will never be.   The the more you get out in service the more you see that no one else is either.  We all have our strengths.  Thats why we are in this fight together.  The WT today was so perfect when it said that when we buckle down and make a decision.... that doesn't mean, smooth road from there.  Following through with that decision will take hard work.  Planning, and a lot of trusting in Jehovah.  But what better thing could you be doing when asking for Jehovahs help??  And look at all the beautiful brothers and sisters we get close to when we are out a lot.  I dont think you truly truly get to know people until you have gone out with them in service a few times.   Out in service your vulnerable, your joyous, your a strength to each other and you help each other.  It opens up relationships to whole deeper levels of friendship.  And in these last days, with the great tribulation right, around the corner, its the strength of our relationships with our brothers and sisters within our hall, that's going to help pull us through.  I feel blessed to be apart of  this congregation.  Your all so beautiful.  Everyone of you.  I only hope in time I can show you the same love.